Identity Crisis

Rajendra Ojha (Nayan)

I feel like I’m energy simultaneously moving in a corresponding world,
That has no fixed time, place and force to move.
Sometimes I swing like a pendulum unbrokenly, my friend,
But rest at the end of the day with no odor of realization.

With the aim of creating an alternative reality that I love,
I travel through the wormhole of my rational dreams.
Abandoning all the physical laws that ever existed,
I’d like to create my own never-ending spiritual big-bang.

I don’t know whether I’m ‘Wai’ or ‘Fire’,
Thy intention toward me likely creates my identity.
But what could this identity really bring to the dignity of Mother Nature?
Well, the results of uncertainty are dangerous.

Uncertainty is a lust coming from the mirage of the heart with a narrow horizon
The more uncertain we are about anything, dear friend,
The more complex this nature gets to us.
I am nothing now, and I’ll continue to be nothing in the future, my friend.
Until this point, I’m unsure of my identity as a ‘Wai’ or ‘Fire’.

[Rajendra Ojha (Nayan) is a Nepalese poet, philosopher, social researcher, social worker, and EU-certified trainer. He also served as a citizen diplomat for three months under the ‘Ministry of Population and Environment’ in 2018 in Switzerland for the diplomatic program of the Minamata Convention, which was held in Geneva, Switzerland. Poems and philosophical writings of Rajendra Ojha have been published in various national as well as international literary journals from Nepal, the U.S.A., India, China, Russia, Spain, Myanmar, and Pakistan in both Nepalese and English. He has also published two anthologies, ‘Through the World’ (a collection of experimental poems) and ‘Words of Tiger’ (a collection of philosophical and psychological poems), in 2011 and 2019, respectively. Mr. Rajendra Ojha had been honored by two major prestigious award named ‘Asia’s Outstanding Internship Solution Provider Award 2020/21’ and ‘Dadasaheb Phalke Television Award 2023’ for his work as a ‘Social Researcher’ as well as a ‘Social Worker’ (Activities related to Social Responsibility) respectively in 2021 and 2023.]